Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Getting Back into it

This blog started to document my marathon training. Since I had to abandon that to get some freaking work done, I have since thought that I can use this blog to document my weight loss. FOOSA is my Fat Out Of Shape Ass. And I would like to lose it.

I was at a show this weekend when I realized that when I look down, I see my boobies and my belly. They are virtually even and I don't like it! In fact, it disturbs me. I would like to look down and see boobies and no belly.

Also, this weekend, I realized how tight my clothes are becoming. And now I sit here typing this with back pain. So I am once again on the roller coaster that is my wieght loss/fitness journey. perhaps it will take this time.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Marathon Postponed

For more information on what's happening in my life, check out my other blog - TippyKayak. Since I now have much too much on my plate, I am postponing my marathon training until at least next year. Thank you to everyone for your support. I certainly appreciate it.

I do want to keep this blog alive, so I thought I would document my weight loss instead. I am still trying to lose about 30 pounds so I can certainly let you know how that's going.

For now - gotta get to work on my dissertation.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

6 Miles

Each week is now "personal record week". Since I am fairly new to running since I have never gotten very far with it, each time I run seems like I am setting personal records. I had never run more than a 5K before. When I ran 4 miles, it was a record. Last week when I went 5.3, it was a record.

Yesterday was another record. 6 miles.

I have to write about them the next day because that's when I truly feel it.

I had been with a friend of mine on Friday. She was planting a garden yesterday in memory of a good friend/family member. I told her I wouldn't be able to join her because I was running. She mentioned that is where her friend would rather be. Her friend was a runner. Loved it and was damn good at it. I remember several Corporate Challenges before she died. She would completely look the part in the running shorts (my thighs still rub together too much for me to wear running shorts so I wear spandex) and her running shirt with sports bra. She would return to the corporate tent afterward not even looking as though she broke a sweat. That is a complete change from what I experience.

At any rate, I told my friend that I would think of her friend while I was running.

And I did.

The first mile seemed much harder than previous miles. In fact I was worried that since it was so difficult, the last 5 would be impossible.

Mile 2 and 3, also difficult. We usually had a water break at mile 2 but yesterday they moved it to mile 3. I didn't know what to do! I thought, good lord, I need my water at mile 2. I thought I would break the 6 miles into three 2 mile pieces, with water after each 2 miles. But the coaches had a different idea and I have to follow along.

I think I thought of my friend's friend at about mile 2.7. There is a lovely little wooden bridge that crosses some creek or another. It is quite beautiful. I don't quite remember what I thought but I remember that it made me smile. I also wouldn't say it motivated me to continue, per se. But the fact that I smiled is enough.

When you feel as though you are killing yourself, if you can crack a smile, something is working in your favor. If you keep going, that's worth the effort.

Today I am limping around - more for sympathy than anything else (I am a Leo and fond of dramatics) - because my thighs are screaming for me never to run again. I will shut them up tomorrow when I run 2.5 miles with ease (it better be with ease after 6).

And I will do yoga later to make them feel a bit better.

After the water stop at mile 3, we turned around. The countdown is much easier for me. And I seem to get a second wind. It's as if the first half is a warm up and the second is just because I can. At mile 3.5 I felt pretty good and thought I could have kept going.

When I finished 6 miles, I thought, I think I could keep running if I had to. Thankfully I didn't have to.

Until next week. When it's 7. I better smile more than once. Thanks D.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

My Personal Best

WOW! Whoever would have thought that I would be running 5 miles. And not just 5 miles, but 5.3 miles. In one day - all at one time.

This past week I skipped my Tuesday workout. I don't know why Tuesdays are so difficult for me. I work at the Downtown Country Market. I love it. But when I'm finished I don't want to run. And I usually plan things directly afterward which doesn't leave me much time to run.

I ended up just moving the workouts so Wed. I ran 3 miles, Thurs, 2, and Friday - 3 miles.

Friday is another story. I thought I would be clever and wear these shorts that would be looser on me. Turns out they rode up and I ended up chaffing because my thighs are not as small as they could be. Horribly uncomfortable. Didn't run 3 miles but ran 2.5 and walked .5. That's fine because Saturday....

Saturday was five miles. I was nervous because I had never run more than 3.5 miles in one setting. What if I couldn't? Then I remembered that I can do anything I set my mind to. The weather also cooperated. Wonderfully sunny, breezy, cool day. It could not have been more then 75 degrees which, given our recent heatwave, means we should have broken out the moon boots and parkas.

So I ran - consistently the entire way. Then as we were approaching the 2.5 mile mark, we couldn't find the marker! Those bastards colored the white marker black so we couldn't see it (I am sure that was not their motivation, but it felt like it at that point). By the time others realized it, they had run 2.7. I run slower so I only ran 2.65. So technically I ran about 5.3 miles or so.

And I felt good.

In fact, our team mentor was out taking pictures after the 2 mile mark and I smiled. I think I even giggled. I actually thought, hey, you're getting your picture taken, strike a pose, look like a runner, stand tall and sassy! Now, before training I would have looked like some kind of freak struggling to breath and stand upright gasping for breath with drool running down her chin - too tired to wipe it.

Then I got home and realized my legs were more like jello than anything and had to relax while my boyfriend changed the brakes in my vehicle. Not that I would be any help in that regard.

I am now looking forward to my runs. I have a day off tomorrow and plan to do yoga because that's an awesome low impact workout that will stretch my muscles. Muscles that are getting more supple and toned each day! And then I have to run 2 miles on Monday.

WHAT? Only two miles?

Monday, June 27, 2005

It is too damn hot to do this!

I am starting to second guess my decision because I now understand what it means to train during the summer. It is blessed miserable. It is too hot to run during the day without either getting sunburned or dying from dehydration. I am not particularly fond of either. One is much too painful, the other is just so final.

So I decided to have an early dinner and hit the road at about 9 p.m. after the sun had started to go down. This way it is cooler out and the sun isn't beating on me. Besides, I only have to run two miles. That should be a piece of cake.

And I was surprised that it was. I was getting annoyed that I was constantly wiping sweat off my face. I cannot stand to have sweat dripping off my face. I also hate when it gets in my eyes. Yuck.

But two miles. No problem. In fact, if I had to run longer today, I could have done it without an issue. I was surprised that I finished and could stop. In the past when I just ran for no apparent reason but to torture myself, I would run until I pretty much couldn't run anymore. Now I have a plan. I like having a plan.

Tomorrow I have to punch out 3 miles. I wonder if it will be cooler. I think thunderstorms are predicted. Not sure if it is safe to run in thunderstorms. My better judgement says - no. We will see.

If I do three as well as I did two today, the five I have to do on Saturday should be a piece of cake!

The best part of the run in heat like this? The cold shower afterward. Never has a cold shower felt so wonderful!

Happy trails!

First Long Run

I am thinking that at my first long run, I won't be in such poor shape. We only have to run 4 miles and I have run 3 already this week so what's another mile?

Turns out, that other mile is the difference between slight discomfort and extreme nausea.

We started our run at 8 a.m. thinking we would beat the heat. Not so, my friends. It was already sweltering when we arrived at the bike path prompting our coach to declare that we are to run at 7 a.m. for the rest of our summer long runs. EGAD! Thank god I don't have a Friday night social life anymore as I did in my youth.

Our coach tells us that we have to sign in and sign out each week to make sure we are all accounted for. Presumably, if I don't sign out, they will send a search party for me on the bike path. They will likely find me curled up all fetal in a ditch praying for an end to the suffering while I try to find my happy place with Sven in a loin cloth feeding me grapes and fanning me with a palm frond, but I digress. (sorry J)

He also tells us that we will likely find others who run at our pace and they will be our buddies, so to speak. I did find others who worked at my pace but it is a rather pathetic retelling.

I run slowly. Very slowly. I will finish, but it won't be breaking any records. There was a group of girls who I think were new to running - which I applaud. Well, they ran/walked the 4 miles and for the first 2 we would pass each other. When they were walking, I would run past, when they ran, they would run past me. It was sort of odd. The coach did say that I was running at a consistent pace which is better than an alternative (which I think would be standing still).

I did find a buddy who runs a bit faster than I. She is pretty cool and she keeps things in perspective. She was a bit upset that I described my time as pathetic. She said, it is what it is. You are running, that's better than nothing. Already I have someone who is motivating me. She's cool and she does well. With any luck, I will be able to train so that I can keep up with her. I can see myself being motivated by her during the marathon. Perhaps I can return the favor at some point.

That would be nice.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Official Training

I think I have officially started training about 400 times but this time it's really official. After receiving my packet, I also received my official first month training schedule. It began this past Monday.

I had to run 2 miles on Monday which is no problem for me. I am only concerned that I don't run fast enough to finish this marathon this century. But I ran two miles and felt good.

I was supposed to run 2.5 miles on Tuesday. I don't often run on consecutive days because I have never had a reason to, truthfully. So this is a test that I promptly neglected. Hell, if I am going to slack, better I do it right from the get go. So I don't run the 2.5 because my day was too full of work and meetings. A poor excuse, I realize, but I'm using that excuse!

Wednesday I am to run another 2 miles and I tackle that without any trouble. I am ready to begin.

Thursday I am to run 3 miles and am a bit afraid. I attend our kick-off meeting for more information and fundraising supplies. And motivation. I am thrilled to be a part of this team. I am sitting at a table with other girls who are afraid of the program because the most they have run is 10 miles and 13 miles. I don't want to say that the farthest I have gone is 3.5 miles but hell, if they can train me, they can train anyone.

I promptly go home and run the 3 miles. Then I sit on the couch and bemoan the pain I will surely be in on Friday.

Friday is here and I am supposed to rest but I feel so bad about skipping Tuesday that I plan to run 2.5 miles today to make up for it. Then tomorrow morning I have to run 4 miles with the team. I hope they don't kick me off!

We do have our fundraising packets and kits. There are so many ways to help, some of which I will outline here!

  • Please go to my online web donation site and consider supporting me in this incredible endeavor. It is very easy to use and the donations are secure.

  • If you don't feel comfortable with that, please let me know. I will be sending sponsorship forms via mail. These cards allow you to send a check or use your credit card to sponsor me. All correspondence is sent to the Leukemia and Lymphoma office.

  • Book a Tarot Card reading party and/or Aromatherapy party. I will come to your home and read tarot cards ($25 per reading per person) and/or host an aromatherapy party featuring my products - Wild Mountain Organics. Proceeds from each will be used for my fundraising goal. So it's tax deductible!

  • I have rubber/plastic bracelets for sale. They are purple and read Train Endure Achieve Matter (TEAM - get it?). They are a knock-off of the Lance Armstrong Live Strong yellow bracelet. I am selling them for $3 each - $2 of the sale goes to my training.

  • If you have a business or know someone who does, I have spare change buckets. These buckets have the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society logo and phone number on them so they are official. Please consider placing one in your shop/office. Let me know.

  • Forward the link to this blog or my donation site to everyone you know. I certainly appreciate a good deed. I am running this marathon for all survivors and those not yet diagnosed as much as I am for myself.


I will have more information in the future about my training and about the Society. I will highlight my honored patient (after she completes the paperwork - HIPAA, you know). Don't want to invade privacy.

Thank you for your support! I hope you enjoy my training diary.

Monday, June 13, 2005

I have my Packet

For those of you who haven't done this before, after you sign up to run the marathon or participate in another endurance event, you receive a packet of information from the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society outlining all the rules, training, fundraising, etc. I got my packet on Saturday and was thrilled!

I was further delighted to learn that not only could I get started with my fundraising efforts by crafting a rather witty and charity-provoking letter to send via snail-mail, but we also have the ability to solicit donations online!

Praise Jesus, Hallelujah, and Kumbaya! We wanted this last year because it makes things so much easier, but they didn't have it available. Now the possibilities are endless! I imagine random people surfing the internet and coming upon this blog. Then they will say, my, isn't this a wonderful project and an amazing cause, and isn't she a great writer. I have cash that I don't know quite know what to do with so I will put it here.

To access my personal fundraising page, please click
here
. Also, I will provide the link to the right so you will always have it at the ready!

I want to thank everyone in advance for all of your support. I have the best network of family and friends.

Also, now is the time to start thinking about hosting a tarot or aromatherapy party! Let me know via email or phone. Or just comment on this blog.

Monday, June 06, 2005

Training

It is hotter than a witch's boob in a brass bra in Phoenix in July. By that I mean, it is hot!

I did go for a couple runs this past week and they felt good. The first time I went to the Alden High School track well after hours so as not to disturb any track and field training. I did 2 miles and felt awesome. I could probably have kept on running, but I thought about all the things I had to do at home and so I left.

The second run I took after taking my mom to get her truck from the repair shop. I took advantage of being out and about and went for a run on the Clarence Bike Path. It is a shortish path but very picturesque. It is also quiet! I ran without my headset so that I could hear any noises should I be followed. I also carried my keys with me and had them at the ready should I be jumped or something. I try to practice running safely. I try to do most things safely.

That was beautiful. It wasn't too hot but the sun was out. The grass and trees were completely green. The wild flowers were in bloom. The forest critters were out in full force. I even saw several dragonflies. It was an all around good experience.

After both runs I felt rejuvenated and ready to continue. Now I just have to get through the hot summer. Perhaps I will have to run at the crack of dawn or at sunset. Wonderful.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Weekend "Training"

This weekend, as we all know, was Memorial Day Weekend. This weekend, instead of train for the run, I thought I would train for the post-run party.

Friday I ate and drank.
Saturday I ate (I couldn't drink because the thought of drinking made me sick).
Sunday I ate (same comments as above).
Monday I ate and drank. I guess I was ok to drink.

Tuesday is wonderful here. The sun is out, it is warm, everything is still green. I will have to run today. Besides, I painted my toe and finger nails. Don't ask me why, but it always makes me feel good and makes me want to get outside to do stuff when I have pampered myself in this way.

I am starting to regret falling off the wagon already, but I am back. And ready. Gotta go eat.

To power my run.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

First Run As a Trainee

I know my post ended ubruptly yesterday so I could go for a run but that was not to be. Instead I decided to get more work done and meet a friend for dinner. We had planned the dinner so it wasn't a surprise, I just didn't plan my day well enough to sneak the run in.

We ate Greek which can be relatively good for you. Dessert, on the other hand, is not. Why do I run? Is it for the kids? Is it to increase cardiovascular fitness? Is it to raise money for a worthy cause? Is it to test the limitations or not of my body?

I train so that I can call dessert "training food". Let's be honest.

That's half true. I do train so that I can add points to my unsanctioned Weight Watchers tracking system I seem to work well with. That allows me to eat dessert and other assorted goodies including potato chips, wine (more than the recommended daily glass of red wine), extra helpings, etc.

I also train because I want to test my limitations. At present, I haven't set any limitations so the sky's the limit. I prefer no ceiling at all so that I can just keep right on going and going beyond my wildest expectations.

I train so that I benefit a worthy cause (and the kids). The TNT program is top notch and does benefit many people including several friends of mine. I am thankful for that.

I do train to increase cardiovascular fitness. I like that I am extending my life. I like that I don't get winded walking down the street or up the stairs. I like that I am healthy.

So this is my roundabout explanation for not running yesterday. Instead, I ran today.

Today was an amazing day in Western New York. Warm, sunny, beautiful. I ran for 30 minutes and then walked for 30 and felt outstanding! I could probably have kept going but I had to do some work before a late lunch engagement (it always comes back to the food). I didn't feel as guilty about not running yesterday. Today was a good day.

I also run so that I may get ideas. I have solved many problems working out - running, biking, hiking, kayaking, etc. If I have writer's block or am stuck on ideas/problems, I work out. The solution presents itself nicely.

This also works with the bathroom. Don't even ask me to explain that because I can't. But if I have a problem, a nice visit to the bathroom with a magazine seems to bring a solution to the fold. But that has nothing to do with training. Just a distgusting aside.

So I ran. And I thought about the race. I probably ran about 2.5 miles and walked another 2. It felt good. And I may do it again tomorrow. And I may follow the run with a wonderful yoga session. Because tomorrow a friend is visiting and I plan to "train" hard!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

It Is Official

I have officially completed the application form and placed the stamp on the envelope. It is off to the Western New York Chapter of the Leukemia and Lymphona Society. I should be registered for the Marine Corp Marathon in a day or so. What does this mean for those reading this:

  • I want your money!

  • I want your time!

  • I want your family and friends!

  • I want your first born child!
I want your money: I shouldn't be so rude. I would love your donation for this wonderful cause. For those who aren't familiar with the endurance training/fundraising program and haven't clicked on the link to the right, the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society's Team In Training is the first and largest endurance/fundraising training program. It's team of volunteer professionals train us poor bastards to run a marathon (that's 26.2 miles for those not in the know). In return for the bodily abuse, we raise funds to support education, treatment, and a host of other things for the Society.

I want your time: Many of you remember that last year I did the Century Ride for the Society. Part of my fundraising included Tarot card reading parties. I would love to entertain again. If you are interested in hosting a Tarot card reading party, please let me know. Who is the reader? I am. And I'm good. Readings are $25 with $15 going to the Society. For more information, please view my Tarot blog - TippyTarot.

NEW THIS YEAR! My sister, Pam, and I purchased an organic/natural body care company - Wild Mountain Organics. I will do an aromatherapy party for you instead (or in addition to) Tarot reading. A portion of the proceeds of the sale of Wild Mountain Organics will be donated to the Society (Pam - I haven't shared that with you yet). Do you want me to read your fortune or pamper you, or both? You decide. Book now - good dates will go fast! (Not really, but the marketing professional in me tells me I should write that.)

I want your family and friends: This is really a continuation of the above but a small bulleted list would have looked foolish. I want you to invite your family and friends for a night of entertaining and pampering!

I want your first born child: This point was to see if you were paying attention. I know all of you - you can keep your first born (kidding!).

What should you know:
  • I need to figure out how to run 26.2 miles by October 30, 2005.

  • I need to raise $2,600 by October 14, 2005.

  • I need to raise $1,300 by August 12, 2005. Ideally, I would love to raise it all by then so that I can concentrate on training, but I digress.

  • I will be celebrating the 22nd anniversary of my 14th birthday on August 9, 2005.
I need your help! In the next few weeks I will be sending my fundraising letters along with information on how you can help. I will also be doing some different things this time around:
  • I will be keeping track of my progress - fundraising and training - using this blog.

  • Anyone who donates $50 or more will have a link put on my blog (to the right) to their website/blog/whatever. This is primarily for businesses, but could be for anyone!

  • Anyone who donates $100 or more will have a link to the right and will have a blog post dedicated to them or their business - approved by them first, of course.

  • Anyone who donates $150 or more will have all of the above and will have their/business name written on my race t-shirt.

  • Anyone who donates more than that will be thanked until the cows come home - in addition to the above.
In the spirit of training, I have to go out for a run right now. I will continue to outline what is going on in the next few posts. Please forward this to anyone you think may be interested. Please also consider a party of one kind or another!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

A Recap....And...Am I on Crack?

My interest in the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society's Team In Training (TNT) program began over a year ago. I thought I would test my physical limits by challenging my body to a century ride - 100 mile bike ride. Lake Tahoe seemed beautiful enough. I would try it there.

Suffice to say I damn near killed myself. But, like many things, you forget the pain and think about the rewards:


  • I may have saved someone's life.

  • I improved myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

  • I rode 100 miles at a high elevation (compared to Buffalo, New York) and over hills. Many, many hills.

For more on my Lake Tahoe TNT adventure, please click here. This will direct you to my site which profiled my journey.

Onward!

That goal accomplished, I thought, why not try a marathon? That's what logical people do, isn't it? After they've abused their bodies with one activity, they wholeheartedly try another!

And here I am. At the juncture of signing the paperwork that will make it official - a marathon runner, a participant, a fundraiser, a crack-smoker. I don't know if I will make it - the running or the fundraising - but I am on board! I am committing myself to raising $2600 for Leukemia and Lymphoma research and education in my area.

I will further document my training and my progress here. Many of you will be referred to this blog because you received a postcard/letter from me begging for money - AGAIN! Others may stumble on it accidently. However you arrive you, thank you for getting this far. I appreciate all of your help on this journey. I will keep you abreast of my progress.

Wish me luck.

Oh, and if you have any spare change....